It is a paradisical place and time, this alternative Caribbean reality on the pirate coast. But at the same time people are always stopping me and asking why I am always bleeding from the head, my left shoulder, my right arm.
Quien sabe!!!
Who knows!!!
I'm never sure where these strange stigmata come from. There is never a good strong determination of cause and effect.
Locals here in Livingstone call them nacios, births. Some say there is an insect, a worm, trying to emerge from these eruptions of the flesh. All are prescribing different things ranging from a plant extract I should drink and bathe in, the sap of the breadfruit tree, or going to the local clinic to have the eruptions lanced.
I just bathe in the Caribbean Sea, even though I smell strongly of blood and there are sharks in these waters. And I wash my many wounds with soap.
It seems to me these things are about transformation, losing the old skin, coming into a beautiful new skin. They're about the snake power, the power of the worm to become a butterfly, the plumed serpent power, the power of Kukulcan.
Who the Mexicans call Quatzalcoatyl and the Mayans call Kukulcan was a Toltec Lord. His people built Teotihuacan, the prototype of the sacred architecture that reached its highest development during the Mayan classical age.
But Kukulcan was a revolutionary and a heretic. He said you needed no puta madre priests, human sacrifice, holy wars, the sacred architecture around the itzing, or Mayan orthodoxy was needed to make manifest the Human in God and God in the Human. Kukulcan said this transformation came from a persons unmediated experience of divinity, that it came from observation and contemplation of the snake power, the worm's power to become a butterfly, the observation and contemplation of the plumed serpent.
Kukulcans heresy caused a civil war in the Toltec World between business as usual, bau, and not business as usual, nbau. Bau won. Kukulcan was militarily and politically defeated. He was exiled to the Yucatan with his loyal warriors. In the Yucatan the cult of Kukulcan was created. The cross represented the butterfly.
When the nbau that became the ultimate bau of Cortes and the dead Jew on the cross, crashed into Central America, naturally it was associated with the nbau of Kukulcan.
Kukulcan abides in the creative imagination, the nbau, of Central America as the alternate way guided by the other light of achieving God manifest in the Human, the Human manifest in God.
And my eruptions of the flesh, my itzings, are abating. So far no insect, or worm, or butterfly, or alien, parasite, predator has emerged from my head, my shoulder, my right arm.
But it feels as if I walk this creation, this reality in a beautiful new skin.